Profilectlx.Carlene Tan Li Xuan 11th July 1988. Currently 23+. Studied in St. Anthony's Canossian Primary and Secondary School, SRJC (first 3 months), TPJC, NUS FASS (econs). loves family, friends, chocs, western desserts, yellow, etc etc.
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009Everything in its time by Corrine May =)Monday, September 28, 2009This is dedicated to all the broken hearts all there especially for my dearest friend who felt the last song i posted fitted her so well. May you be over him soon. Haha... However, if possible, be WITH him. =) Feels so ironic i'm putting this up but... Enjoy dear friend! "Over You" Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you. You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. Well I'm putting my heart back together, 'Cause I got over you. Well I got over you. I got over you. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you. Wednesday, September 23, 2009Happen to chance upon this song while listening to all my songs on itunes so just decided to share the lyrics cause i thought it was rather meaningful. =)A little on the low side though but enjoy! =) What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house That don't bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok But that's not what gets me What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin' to do It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go But I'm doin' It It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do Not seeing that loving you That's what I was trying to do Ooohhh.... Saturday, September 19, 2009ARGH!!!I'm feeling super guilty now. My besties and I were thinking of going for a short holiday at the end of the year. And I cleverly assumed my family was able to give me SOME $$ to go holiday. So I'm back home and I just asked my mum about it, and... guess what. She told me, "sorry, we got not enough dough to give you. Now even thinking of selling our gold to help tide over the education." THAT felt like a bomb exploded in my face. I can't believe I actually even thought of asking. I mean I knew about our financial status but that reminder just made me want to cry. I felt so useless and incapable. URGH. And she even apologized for not being able to let me go. Sigh. Maybe she was right when she said she has a pretty lousy daughter last time. Super guilty. =( Friday, September 18, 2009It's been a month now.Many things have happened within this month I think. Haha. And within this one month, I think I've found something I use to have and that's finding happiness in the simple things in life. It's quite ridiculous how some simple things can make me smile so widely but I'm enjoying it. Maybe its cause I have more time to myself now? I think I'm on my road back to self discovery, and maybe when I've truly recovered myself will I be ready again. I think me changing in the course of 2 years has had an impact on my previous relationship. I've finally stepped down as a blk commer, and don't know why, but I'm still all ready to give in my own little way. Maybe I'll only impact the people I'm closer to but I'm fine with that. As long as whatever I did can make someone smile, I think I'll be very contented. I think I'll find it wierd if I get to take food first or something during suppers. Haha. I'd much rather make sure everyone gets to eat first before I feel comfortable eating. Haha... And I hope they'll just let me be when the time comes. It feels weird not doing anything on a Fri night like this... was suppose to have netball trials but it got cancelled cause of poor attendance. Shall hope that I'm not too lazy to gym later with rachie! Haha... Well, recently, a friend shared this really beautiful song with me, and I'd like to share with everyone. Think its a pretty old song but the lyrics are really sweet. And always remember, I'm always here to listen! =) "Fix You" by Coldplay When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears stream down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down your face And I... Tears stream down on your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down your face And I... Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Sunday, September 13, 2009After listening to Sher perform this song during her birthday party, I just got addicted to it and I don't know why, its just an emo song that suits my emotion now although the content don't quite fit what i'm going through but ya. Here it is:Desperado - Carrie Underwood Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? You been out ridin' fences for so long now Oh, you're a hard one I know that you got your reasons These things that are pleasin' you Can hurt you somehow Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy She'll beat you if she's able You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet Now it seems to me, some fine things Have been laid upon your table But you only want the ones that you can't get Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin' Your prison is walking through this world all alone Don't your feet get cold in the winter time? The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine It's hard to tell the night time from the day You're loosin' all your highs and lows Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away? Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? Come down from your fences, open the gate It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you You better let somebody love you, let somebody love you, let somebody love you, before it's too late http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=treIBdESR2s http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djP8zIwCp3I&feature=related - oldie version Friday, September 11, 2009"Sometimes the tears fall unbidden because they have welled up inside and have nowhere else to go, but down your cheeks" |